tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post1761371925200151416..comments2023-06-07T04:09:48.577-07:00Comments on ...Our House for Coffee: What - Fear Again? Heidihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-41294553308148869392012-11-16T14:15:39.142-08:002012-11-16T14:15:39.142-08:00Thanks Lena. That is such a good reminder. Just sa...Thanks Lena. That is such a good reminder. Just saw your blog today. So thankful for you that your week is chemo free!Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-90450032653655237912012-11-15T10:31:16.183-08:002012-11-15T10:31:16.183-08:00Love is the opposite of fear. Whenever I start to ...Love is the opposite of fear. Whenever I start to get afraid I remember love. Love of my family, my friends, and most of all how much I love life! Gets my head out of fear. It will probably never go away completely, but having a plan for when it does arrive makes it easier. <br /><br />You are awesome! Lenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12893033655961221069noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-4212788852084058612012-11-03T12:21:16.076-07:002012-11-03T12:21:16.076-07:00Thanks Lori - that's awesome!Thanks Lori - that's awesome! Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-20015107442423687902012-11-03T12:09:16.635-07:002012-11-03T12:09:16.635-07:00You are very welcome. Yes, I'm done! But havin...You are very welcome. Yes, I'm done! But having that whole, "What now?" feeling. Actually, you just inspired me to (finally) write a new post. Which I'm about to publish. And I've given you a shout-out - hope you don't mind! The fear thing is incredibly hard, I'm finding.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04648283904073127681noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-21986060398650263262012-11-03T11:42:53.365-07:002012-11-03T11:42:53.365-07:00Thanks Lori for the encouragement. You are so righ...Thanks Lori for the encouragement. You are so right. When I think of the big picture I am way healthier then 2 years ago when I didn't try to hard. Small changes add up big in the long run. Are you finished rads yet? Thinking about you often.Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-9461341275094556632012-11-03T11:40:56.647-07:002012-11-03T11:40:56.647-07:00Awesome. I love that we're always changing and...Awesome. I love that we're always changing and growing. I wouldn't want that to change even though the catalyst for change is often difficult. Keep listening to life giving words.Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-11327847668840772982012-11-03T11:34:03.978-07:002012-11-03T11:34:03.978-07:00The exercise-eating right thing messes with my hea...The exercise-eating right thing messes with my head a lot too. I eat much better than I used to, but I'm scared it's not enough. I frankly don't have it in me to start a raw vegan diet at the moment. For what it's worth, I think you're doing awesome. You're exercising, period, which is a wonderful thing that many, many people, cancer or not, don't do. You're a mom, you're a wife, you get things done when they can be done. And your loved one, family, and online friends are here to keep rooting you on. Sending a big hug your way.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04648283904073127681noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-32272882348841053442012-11-03T10:15:12.771-07:002012-11-03T10:15:12.771-07:00Hi Heidi. You will be an inspiration to me. Always...Hi Heidi. You will be an inspiration to me. Always. I want to say that you feeling like you're always talking about cancer is like me talking about being in Turkey last year. It's us processing so many things that have gone on in our hearts and in our lives. It sometimes seems like a fine line of bringing it up again in conversation or not. We are forever changed. Now we make changes that stem out of that and thers either "get it" or don't. I've been choosing to listen to those who give words of life. ~Vvfehrhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10129837673297920125noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-46080439047794733222012-11-02T14:21:54.437-07:002012-11-02T14:21:54.437-07:00Heather - I forgot to comment on your comment! I l...Heather - I forgot to comment on your comment! I love you sister! Keep going!!Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-23645062908990304992012-10-31T13:32:53.407-07:002012-10-31T13:32:53.407-07:00Thanks Carolyn. I do feel God's peace today!Thanks Carolyn. I do feel God's peace today!Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-91013186238908172802012-10-31T13:32:22.375-07:002012-10-31T13:32:22.375-07:00Thanks for sharing that Melissa. Grief is totally ...Thanks for sharing that Melissa. Grief is totally one of those things that can sneak up on you. I pray God's still small voice will speak to you while you are in silence. Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-39101808272958635862012-10-30T22:04:16.264-07:002012-10-30T22:04:16.264-07:00Thanks for being so honest -- and for sharing that...Thanks for being so honest -- and for sharing that. <br />May you feel God's peace upon your spirit....Carolynnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-54798385478232271862012-10-29T20:30:39.924-07:002012-10-29T20:30:39.924-07:00You said: "I have this feeling. It's unde...You said: "I have this feeling. It's under the surface of my skin and I think it's fear or panic and if I look too closely at it I feel like it will grow. If I ignore it, maybe it'll go away."<br /><br />That sounds just like how I feel right now, except that instead of fear or panic, it's GRIEF. It comes in waves and right now there's one building. I know because I've gone through this cycle enough times now, but it always sneaks up on my anyway at first and I always still try to ignore/stuff/squelch/stifle it hoping it will just go away peacefully without a big sobbing mess. I rarely know what I'm grieving about until something finally triggers the sobbing (or sometimes just trickling tears while I'm doing the dishes because I don't have the time and space at that moment for the sobbing.) And I will never like it. And I don't know about your fear but I know my grief will never really end this side of heaven. It doesn't hit nearly as often as it did during our first months here in Peru, but it will never be all cried out because there will always be something more that I'm missing... knowing my nieces and nephews more, being there as my parents get older, etc, etc, etc. In these next couple of days I actually have some time for a semi-silent retreat and I'm sort of terrified of what might surface... and now I'm just rambling but pray God keeps teaching you about your fear and that He'll teach me to not fear the grief... <br /><br />Thanks...Melissa Enshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13150144883345686275noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-50342928293113670462012-10-29T15:54:45.371-07:002012-10-29T15:54:45.371-07:00Thanks Kristin. :)
Thanks Kristin. :)<br />Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-91833194527429060122012-10-29T15:54:08.925-07:002012-10-29T15:54:08.925-07:00Mel - I emailed you!
Mel - I emailed you!<br />Heidihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06351598594013934291noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-79503698694889965122012-10-29T14:08:47.435-07:002012-10-29T14:08:47.435-07:00Awh Heidi..thanks for sharing that.
I saw that ep...Awh Heidi..thanks for sharing that. <br />I saw that episode and was really touched by that guys response on the couch too, mostly because it wasn't what I expected. I know and believe you and Zach will have many awesome years to share together and I can't wait to see it happen. You are so brave and I love you. I will pray that God brings you more and more peace to your life everyday.<br />-HHeather-31https://www.blogger.com/profile/12728098431799115361noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-70628395127754363952012-10-29T07:25:57.171-07:002012-10-29T07:25:57.171-07:00To fear I say, "Get behind me Satan, you shal...To fear I say, "Get behind me Satan, you shall not prevail!" And I shout it on your behalf, friend. It is understandable that you would have moments of panic and fear, about any aspect of your life. Cancer is scary. Talk about it, get the fear out of your mind and release it... again and again and again. I pray peace for your family all through the weeks and will be shouting down Satan and fear for you, too! Maybe you need a victory mantra that becomes your chant...keep saying it til you feel it and believe it in those darker moments. Don't stop talking to us, your words about your story encourage me in mine. *HugsKristinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08988517499449815330noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-915839981201369833.post-17461347589844066312012-10-29T03:57:06.045-07:002012-10-29T03:57:06.045-07:00Heidi - you have NO idea how this post just touche...Heidi - you have NO idea how this post just touched my heart. As I'm typing, I'm sobbing with the kleenex box on my lap. If you are okay with it, I would love to email you and share what I'm working through in my own life right now...possibly glean some wisdom from you, and explain how this post spoke to me today, etc. My email is (we5sticktogether@gmail.com). If you're okay with me emailing you, send me a shout along with YOUR email address. Thanx a bunch...Melhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04934086244955335351noreply@blogger.com